Jimmy 'The Rev' Sullivan

I don't really know if you guys listen to Avenged Sevenfold or if you even care. But this band is close to my heart so I must blog.

Avenged Sevenfold's drummer died 2 days ago. But I found out yesterday but I didn't blog about it then cos I just didn't feel like it. It was too soon.

Not only was he one of the greatest drummers in the whole world but he was Brandon's hero. And if I'm crushed imagine wat Brandon is feeling.

On Brandon's facebook he said he's not taking any calls or IMs or anything. The Rev was the only hero Brandon had I think. And now he's left with no hero. I wanna just walk the 20 miles to Neb City and give him a hug. But he needs time alone.



A fan posted something on an article about The Rev's death saying that he's 28 and that you don't die of natural causes at 28. I can feel millions of fans thinking "Why God? Why'd you take him now?"

I can't answer that question. And I'm hoping so much that it wasn't drug related. He doesn't seem like that type of guy.

I don't know wat else to say except..

-I hope Brandon feels better soon.
-I hope they can find more about The Rev's death.
-I hope all of A7X's fans are pulling through this tragic time.
-I hope The Rev is happy...wherever he is..

R.I.P. James 'The Rev' Sullivan


Song: Dear God
Artist: Avenged Sevenfold
Album: Avenged Sevenfold

Angry List...grr! >:]

I'm so bored. And I know I already blogged today but who cares? I'm deciding to make a list of how to make me mad. :D (not in any particular order...)

1. Shoving religion down my throat. I do not care about how you think God works. I believe that if you believe in him, you're good to go.

2. No means no. End of discussion. Enough said...

3. Knowing I have a boyfriend and trying to get me to do "stuff" with you. Nothing but a bunch of man whores in this town.

4. Acting B.A. but really you aren't. I have a friend, who will not be named, do this a lot. I don't give a monkey's banana if you "supposedly" got drunk last night. stfu and get a life.

5. Judging me. You don't know me or my life. Just cos my hair and my style and my personality and the way I act is too weird for you does not give anyone a right to "hate" me and go behind my back and make up shit about me. Which brings me to #6.

6. Making up rumors. Period. Countless times where I found out that someone started a rumor that I slept with them or their boyfriend.

7. Sexual Harassment. I have gone through this ever since I was 4 years old. I just went through it 2 minutes ago. No joke. Some guy who I just started talking to like 30 minutes ago sent me "something." Don't even know him, he doesn't know me or wat I look like. He just thought it would be okies to send it. It also makes me REALLY mad that guys act like its not even a big deal after they do that.


That's about it. Stupid people...sorry..still somewat mad over wat the guy sent me.
Oh wow this guy is different. He's actually starting to feel bad. Sorry but I swear this is the first guy to feel bad afterwards...

sigh...

alright bye people <3

First Day of Winter Break

Really wat am I suppose to do? There's nothing to do!
My Neb City friends don't get out until 11:30.


And there's no one to hang out with...
I could make a YouTube video with my brothers..but they are embarrassing so unless they behave, not gonna happen. Or I could take a lot of photos and put them on Facebook. But I don't think so. Putting a lot of photos of yourself on Facebook at one time sorta screams "Loner" to me.


Oh my god ohmygod omg...
I forgot to tell you guys something xD

My boyfriend Jeff got me a necklace :3
I'm not putting the background story cos a lot of guys read this and they'll be like "We don't give a damn about how he did it!!"
So yea :/
But you guys can look at my pics from the night he gave it to me. It should be public but if not someone put a comment here saying so...please..

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/album.php?aid=33381&id=1663917602

Yea that's the album. But there was this creeper guy at the dance following me and my friends around.

But Jeff turns 16 soon and it's exciting :D

Cos then me and him could see each other more often. :]

Not much else to put...

So yea everyone not much is happening in Kenna's world.

Happy Holidays <3

Sorry!

I'm sorry. Truly I am.

Got grounded....I don't even remember what for...Oh yea! Grades!


Stupid grades...
But that's why I haven't blogged in over a month.



But it's almost Winter break and I am uber positive I'm going to blog a lot there.
But until then enjoy the snow!


Oh yea! Also I think I'm going to do videos about posers. Not necessarily vLogs. But like little videos. I can't do that until after Christmas tho.

Anyways Happy Hannukah, Happy Kwanza, Merry Christmas, or Happy Watever you celebrate! :]

YouTube! :D

Yea so I got an account a while ago and yesterday I put my 3rd video on so I guess I'm keeping it. :]

http://www.youtube.com/user/KennaGoesRawwr

Halloween

For me halloween is really fun. I love dressing up. :3
Not to mention my costume rocks.

So anyways I'm also kinda mad about it. I was suppose to spend Halloween with my boyfriend watching scary movies. D:<


Well now I'm stuck going to my school's Halloween Party. Did I mention it's sponsored by our Music Department? Wow. Yea sure there will be costume contests and stuff.

But eh. Usually when something is sponsored by a bunch of goodie goodie Band nerd parents I'm not sure if it'll be THAT much fun.


Another thing I like about Halloween is the movies and shows. Like ABC Family is showing Edward Scissorhands tonight. That is like one of the best movies ever! I hope a channel is showing Charlie Brown's halloween movie tho.
Which btw does anyone know a channel that is? Haha.

Well I'm going to go now. Happy Halloween my pretties! *witch laugh* xD

Song: This Is Halloween
Artist: Marilyn Mansion
Album: Nightmare Revisited

(One more thing...anyone notice that some stores already have Christmas decorations for sale...WTF!? D:<)

Falling In Love at a Coffee Shop

Lol actually it was band camp. But still.
Last night I found myself listening to Falling In Love at a Coffee Shop by Landon Pigg.
(It was from that AT&T commercial about the guy who goes around the world but leaves behind his girlfriend tehe :3)
Anyways I was also staring at pics of him I have on my phone.

And I realized I miss him a lot that it hurts. I haven't seen him ever since my Homecoming. And that's been a while. I'm starting to wish I transfered to his school. But that's risky because the only way I can is if I can get kicked out.
But then I don't want to leave behind my friends here for the rest of the year. D:

I've loved him the most out of any other guy I've known. Yet I barely see him. This sucks. D:<
I was suppose to go with him to the Pumpkin Patch but his dad doesn't like me. So that's out of the question.

Stupid boyfriend's parents. D:<

Song: Falling In Love at a Coffee Shop
Artist: Landon Pigg
Album: Falling In Love at a Coffee Shop-Single

Birthday Sex! :D

Okies not exactly birthday "sex." It's just my birthday! Well it's my birthday tomorrow but I get to hang with a friend at the mall today. Party! :D I'm super excited cos I'm finally 15! :3

Even though earlier this week, on Monday I think, I forgot the date so I had absolutely no clue it was my birthday soon haha.

I love my birthday. Not because it's my birthday or the presents or the cheesecake or the attention. But my birthday is in my favorite season Fall. I love Fall because of Halloween and I get to dress up and show Kenna-style to things. Also because I just love the smell of it and the leaves falling and leaf piles. Oh! And pumpkin patches. This year I already know I'm going to 2 patches. With my boyfriend's family and my family.

I know I didn't say it in the last blog I talked about going with my boyfriend's family but I'm going to be out really late cos his family wants to do a bonfire type thing at his aunt's house. Like they are doing it the old fashion way (I think...?). They dig a fire ring into the ground and put rocks around the fire ring and use sticks and all to make the fire. I personally think that would be cool cos well I like to look at fire and I've never seen fire made that way except for in cartoons.

So yea that's basically it. :]
I hope you all have a fantastic Saturday and Sunday. I love you all. xD
Buh-bye pretties :3

Oh shyt! O:

Total random again.
But uhm...

My boyfriend came to my homecoming with me!!! :D
I went to his but it was seriously boring and Brandon got emotional cos he kept seeing me and Jeff having such a good time.
Poor Brandon D':

Anyways homecoming. I had to do SO much shit to get him here. (Only to find out I didn't have to do all of it..! D:<) AND it took major work trying to find him. -_-
But it was fun. We danced our hearts out. :3
Of course my legs are so paying for it right now. D:

Kaelyb also called me last night. It was a total accident but me and him started talking and it was nice. Like old times. x3


But also last night my friend Lacie was a total bitch! D:<
Like basically the only thing that mattered to her AT ALL was her date, Nate. He doesn't even give a shit about her and I know she's gonna get hurt. I'm wondering if I should even care at all when she does get hurt cos she was a total bitch. Like yea the regular was kinda annoying from time to time. But I would rather have that Lacie than the Lacie I saw last night.
At school Monday we all thought about ignoring her. Most likely...we will...And I wouldn't feel guilty one bit cos she screwed up her relationship with us. No one is to blame but her.

It also pissed me off that when Lacie tried to get close to her friends, Nate acted like something was wrong so she would go back to him. D:<

(Hahaha I saw them kissing last night btw and I started gagging so badly I could've sworn I was gonna throw up no joke. It also happened again when I saw her grinding him...My Eyes!!! Dx)

So yea...main thing is Homecoming was great last night except for the bitchy friend. :D

I'ma go now. Bye loves! :]

It's been too long darlings :]

How's everyone doing?

I am swell. :D

Cos...*drum roll*
I gots a new boyfriend! x3
It's my ex-boyfriend's best friend. Which some people say that's a bad thing to do. o.O
But my boyfriend, Jeff, is like the deepest relationship I've had. I'm feeling things with him that I've never felt before. I love him so much than I have ever loved anyone. But Brandon (my ex and his friend) tells me he still isn't over me. And I'm thinking "Wtf? If you aren't over me then why'd you agree to break up with me?" And he said he doesn't know wat he wants right now.

But besides that everything is swell. Sophomore year is going...it's just going haha. And Homecomig and Spirit Week are next week. Whoot! Haha

Well I'm just making this blog short cos well...nothing has really happened. Which I guess is a good thing :]

Bye Bye meh Luhvers xD

Maybe I'm Dreaming...

Okies I know I'm overdue for a blog. But lately I got inspired by Phoenix's blog "August Dreams." Check her blog out. She's an amazing blogger. :]

But anyways with school and thoughts and guy stuff happening a lot with me lately I'm trying to figure out the best route for me. Like "Wat guy would make me the happiest and not hurt me?" or "Should I bother studying even tho I'm good enough for this class anyway..?"

Cos there are like...I dunno. All I know is there's more than 5 guys who want me right now. Some are for sex. Some love. Some just like me out of the blue 85-ish% chance I'm gonna choose love. xD Maybe for the guys that like me. I don't know. :/ All I know is I don't want a guy who just wants me for my body. Like how pathetic is that? I really don't think you can be any shallower than that. It's just stupid. Which is why I'm not choosing the guys that want me for sex. I believe in loving/liking a person for who they are. Like for example I dated this drug addict back in 7th grade. People were all like "Wtf? Why are you dating Cody?" and they just didn't get it. If they saw past the stoner they would've seen a really nice guy. Sure me and him met on a blind date set up by ours friends but I'm glad I gave him a chance. :]


And now school. I'm trying so hard to get into Doane College in Crete, NE. It's a perfect school for me where I can become a psychologist. And colleges like lots of math classes. Which is why I'm taking TWO math classes this year and then taking College Algebra for my Junior Year. I dunno if I want to take a math class my senior year. :/ Not to mention I'm taking lots of College Credit classes my Senior Year and doing loads of extra-curricular activities. See Doane is a good Performing Arts college. Note that I am in Drama, Choir, Band, and Speech. :D Which would help me cos this college gives out scholarships just for being in pep band! o.O That's like 10 years of College for me! o.O

And then how I'm going to get to my favorite city ever to live. Akron, Ohio!

Oh gosh. I'm in over my head. @_@

Song: God Help The Girl
Artist: God Help The Girl
Album: God Help The Girl

(wow... xD)

You're killing me smalls!

School started for me Monday..
(Fuck!!)
Like it's only the first week and already I'm tired of it D:

It's only the first week and already I'm having drama. ):
Guy drama, friend drama, family drama.

I hate being a teenager D:
Too much drama. ):


And the fact that sophmore year I have tons of homework D8
And I had to get a new locker >_>
And Mike is already after me again D':

He won't leave me alone Dx
He forced me to walk home with him.. o.o
(Can that count as harassment? >_>)

Haha I wish...wait...he bit me.. >_>
I could try to get him in trouble but I doubt it would do anything o.O



Gosh this is so random.
I wish I had a Saturday night life xD
But then again I'm overdue for a blog..

Hows everyone doin tonight!? ;D xD
*boredom!!!*

dear lord.. xD

Song: Big Bang Theory Theme
Artist: The Barenaked Ladies
Album: Big Bang Theory Theme-Single

My Mother

I use to not believe in hate. That has changed. I hate my mother. And it's not like that teenage thing "Oh I hate my mom cos she wouldn't let me go out with friends." No this is actually hatred. I loathe her.

Lately things have not been good between me and her.
Like how she PROMISED me she would give me back my iPod AND my cell phone. I do not have either back yet.
And she's telling me to tell the truth and always be honest. She's a hypocrite. She stole from WalMart and Target!!!

And a rumor is going around my family that she's taking me to a Green Day concert soon. The only reason she's taking me (if the rumor's true) is cos my real dad is taking me to a different concert!!!
She doesn't even want me but the only reason she's keeping me is cos she doesn't want my dad being happy cos he's keeping me.

I hate my mother and I want her to get out of my life...

My Owl City experiment

So last night there was a thunderstorm and it woke me up.
(How it didn't wake anyone else up I will never know.)

Then I remembered a few days ago I wanted to try listening to my Owl City songs during a storm. So yea I had an experiment sorta thingie.. xD

(I don't know why I did it..! o.O)

See the songs on my iPod are Rainbow Veins, Super Honeymoon, West Coast Friendship, Fireflies, Vanilla Twilight, and Fuzzy Blue Lights.



Here is my response to each song... :]

Rainbow Veins

This song didn't really have much effect to me during the storm. But it was quite calm and relaxing 8D

Super Honeymoon

This song had more of an effect than Rainbow Veins but not much. It put me a little bit more on the sleepy side.



West Coast Friendship

Yea this song almost put me to sleep lol. It also reminded me a lot of California haha.



Fireflies

OhMyGizzod this song had an awesome effect on me. I was paying attention to the lyrics and when it got to the climax part of the song it started lightning-ing a lot xD Tell me that's just a coincidence!! It's not. God wanted it to happen >:D

Vanilla Twilight

Yea this song put me to sleep. Literally! I fell asleep then woke up like 10 seconds later haha!

Fuzzy Blue Lights

This song I don't quite remember. Lol maybe cos I crashed when all my music was done. xD!!


So yea...basically if you can't sleep during a thunderstorm I suggest listening to Vanilla Twilight by Owl City :3

That's all for now..!
kiss kiss~ ;3

Song: Vanilla Twilight
Artist: Owl City
Album: Ocean Eyes

Happy August!! :D

Atleast I think it's August. Since I don't have my phone I rely on my iPod's calendar to tell me wat day it is..when I actually care wat day it is. Haha xD

So yea I start school in 16 days..16 days!? Wtf!!? Summer has gone by fast. I wish school would start soon but then after like 2 weeks I'll wish for it to be over again lmao. But I'm excited! My real dad is taking me to a Blink-182, Fall Out Boy, and Panic at the Disco concert the day before school starts hehe xD My mom doesn't realize that yet. BUT..! She said I could go to the concert so bwahahaha...!!

Sophmore year..eep!! *excitement!*
Don't tell my mommy but I stole her Frankenstein doll (that makes a Frankenstein noise when you squeeze it!! x3) and I'm putting it in my locker. Yup taping it on the door ;D And I'm going to probably magnetic poetry. (Magnets with words so you can make your own poems x3) And pictures of all my besties. My mom has no clue I'm going to be using her printer this much tehe. ^^ xD

And I'm getting blonde highlights again. Last time I got them when they started growing out some of them turned WHITE! xD
I thought it was cool! Hopefully it'll happen again. x3


And since school is starting again let's get ready for some more DrAmA~!
Oi damn I hate the drama at my school. Like if there's no drama then there will be in 5 minutes. And then the new 7th grade that are coming into the school. (My school is middle school and high school combined)
They have wayyy too much drama. Especially the girls. Like I thought my middle school years were dramatic. Fuck no!! Like if someone starts dating someone else even just drops dead just by hearing about it basically. That's how dramatic these 7th graders are. Not too mention my brother Quinn will be coming to my school. That's gonna be a pain in the ass. Cos like either I get in trouble and nags me about it later at home or he gets in trouble and I nag him about it at home. Basically when he's not in trouble, I am. He gets it from me :3

And then how my real dad is living here again and it's driving my mom insane. She thinks now it's everyone vs. her. Really it's not. She's getting really paranoid D8 I think she's gone Schitzo!! Hahaha xD

Well that's it for now. Everyone good luck with the new school year :]
Bye lovers! x3


Song: Crank It Up
Artist: Hadouken!
Album: Music For An Accelerated Culture

Friend Drama...

So yea this is all based on just ONE friend. Like wtf? My friend has to be such a bitch I have to take my steam out on my blog instead of at her? Apparently!

See like first she has to take her friends' boys. But now she has to lie about everything? Even when she doesn't need to!


Like I've always told her "I would rather take honesty over lies. No matter wat it is.." But obviously she can't get it through her thick head.

Or the fact that she's a drama queen. Like when something doesn't go her way, all she will do is just sit there and pout! Like just get over it! And she never takes responsibility for her actions. She always has to blame someone else.. I doubt I could remember a time when she has actually taken the blame for her actions.
Oh and she can't do anything without my "say so." It's like if I would never do it, she would never do it. And then she tries to make it seem like she's being like me. Everyone knows there could never be 2 Kennas. If there was, run bitches run!! xD
Haha but seriously. It's like her regular life isn't good enough.
And then her self-esteem issues. Like basically this is how she feels "I'm not good enough for that but I'm too lazy to even try and get better cos I know I will never be good enough."
Pathetic eh?

I just swear I'm gonna smack her!! Gahhh!!! She has no idea how much she pisses everyone off.

So here I'm gonna ask you all wat I should do..
Any suggestions? Comment!! ^_^

Song: Congratulations, I Hate You
Artist: Alesana
Album: Try This With Your Eyes Closed

Boredness Blog

I am doing this cos well...title says it all! :D *jazz hands*
Hehe.

Well some of you may know, some of you may not know,...I was in the hospital Saturday through Sunday. My BHS got to me and it was Kaelyb's fault. I feel bad for blaming it on him but yea. It was his fault. He kept calling me a whore and a slut and a whole bunch of other stuff. (This was on MSN btw!) Like I said "Kaelyb, please stop making me feel so low." and then he said "Low!? The only reason you're low is cos you're always on your knees!"
Which that was the worst one for me. Like it really hurt. And then at the hospital when the doctors saved me my aunt came and gave me her labtop to stay connected with friends and blah blah blah. (She let's me us it whenever I'm hospitalized.) Anyways Kaelyb messaged me and he was like "Omg! Kenna I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to start your BHS! I was mad! You know I have anger issues!" Which he does. One of the reasons I broke up with him. Oh shit he's messaging me right now on MSN. Okies but that day he said he thinks he has split personality. Which I wouldn't doubt. But from now on if he wants to talk to me, he's going to have to talk first.
But right now on MSN he's being nice. Which I'm so relieved for.

So yea...other than the hospital things are great.
:3
ttyl luhvs x3

Song: Never Forgotten Summer
Artist: A Sunset Diary
Album: All They Ever Do Is Stare

Random Updates

So yea I'm just blogging from the heart right about now. And it's the first time I'm blogging while my parents are home. Hell...it's the first time I'm actually using the comp with my mom in the room!! So basically if she starts to see wat I'm typing...I'm gonna have a lot of explaining to do...


So a few blogs ago (I'm guessing 2 or 3) I wrote about Kaelyb and another guy. Some news there. Yes me and Kaelyb are broken up. Yes I did get that boy aka Brandon Collier. Yea that's all good news. But some bad news is... Kaelyb isn't over me. :( He's been blocking me on and off for the past week or 2 now. He's also been getting upset at me for no reason. Like I said that the pic of him was funny. Which it really was. His facial expression and everything actually made me laugh. But anyways it was a friendly non-harmful conversation and after I made the comment about his picture straight out of nowhere he tells me to go fuck myself. I was totally offended by that and it actually made me feel sad! And after he told me that he blocked me AGAIN!! But then the next day I see that he unblocked me (Surprise, Surprise...) and he said "Omg Kenna please don't hate me I don't know why I said that. I was mad!" and I said "Really it's okies I'm over it. But I don't get why you keep getting upset at me over the littlest things?" and then THEN!!! he says "It's because in all honesty I will never stop loving you." In my mind I was all "Shit! Fuck! Awwh how sweet. Shiiitt!!" Kinda like touched but also mad-ish. I wasn't mad but hopefully you get wat I'm sayin. Oh wait. But before that I should tell you wat he said about me and my boyfriend. So one day I saw he unblocked me on msn so I talked to him and being a concerned ex-girlfriend who's trying to be friends I asked "Are you really over me?" and he said yes. I'm pretty sure it was the next day that on my msn my saying mentioned my boyfriend and he said something about it and was like "Well I hope you and him are happy!!!" That's when I started thinking he wasn't over me but now I know he'll probably never get over me for a while. Which pretty much sucks.

Lately I've been getting back to my old life sorta-ish. Like my other ex-boyfriend Chris. And my old BFF Khai. Haha they haven't changed a bit. :] Khai says I've changed a lot. Which yea I have lol. I've missed them both tons. But as I keep talking to them some old memories come up. Like when I was suicidal. Which I'm glad I can safely say I'm not suicidal anymore! Or when me and my mom and step-dad had the worst parent-kid relationship in the history of the Earth! Well almsot. My parents have never burnt me with cigarettes or rape me and stuff like that. But you get wat I'm saying. It was bad.

Also with s'mores year coming up. I heard this song Weightless by All Time Low and I'm hoping that my sophmore year is like this song. See in the song it says "Maybe it's not my weekend. But it's gonna be my year." Yea I was hoping that freshman year would be a good year. Yea that was when I changed but then all the rumors about me going around. Looking back and remembering all the rumors about me (fucking Mike Wright and getting myself pierced "down there" were some of the major ones) I bet that if none of those rumors went around, I would have had a kickass freshman year! But nope! SOMEONE couldn't keep their mouth shut and it started a whole wildfire about me...GAWD!!!
So yea I hope sophmore year's gonna be kickass.


Well that's about it. I feel better now. :]
ttyl my loves!


Song: My Own Worst Enemy
Artist: Lit
Album: A Place In The Sun

Sophmore Year is soon coming

So yea I think it was yesterday...*hold on thinking*...Yea it was yesterday when I got on PowerSchool on my schools website cos I have been dying to see if I got the classes I wanted. Answer is:...Haha!! Yea!!!

First Period: Art 1 with Mrs. Sasse
Second Period: English 2 with Mrs. Simon
Third Period: Spanish 2 with Mrs. Mohr
Fourth Period: Choir with Ms. Poe
5a Lunch Period
Fifth Period: Geometry with Mrs. Nix
Sixth Period: Algebra 2 with Mr. Boerner
Seventh Period : World Cultures with Mr. Fuller
Eighth Period: Biology with Mrs. Volkmer

Yes. My class schedule. Ta-Da! I'm glad I'm taking 2 math classes this year. And I'm glad to be back in Mr. Fuller's class cos well that's my favorite classroom haha. It's just...Biolody. Last year I was hempaphobic or howevs you spell it. Either way I had a fear of gore or blood. Like real life type. I could sit through a whole gore movie and be fine. I'm not sure if I'm over it tho. I have a feeling I will faint in that class...

I'm hoping that the year will go smoothly for me. And I really hope I don't have to get more than 3 backpacks like I do every single year cos they always break on me!!! D:<
And how I'm going to get my hair the way I wanted. My mom promised me. If she doesn't you guys are witnesses cos she did PROMISE me I could get my hair like that.

Anyways no one's talking to me on the comp and my ex boyfriend Bryce is in town so I think I'll bug him haha. Bye Loves ;D

Song: Misery Business
Artist: Paramore
Album: Riot!

Summer Bringing Changes...again..

Yea I think we all know summer brings changes for lots of people. I've changed a bit each summer for like the past 3 or 4 years...

4 years ago, I was shy, anti-social, had only 1 friend, and was a major girly girl.
Hard to believe right?

3 years ago, I turned into a whore who absolutely needed attention from every person in a 30 foot radius of me.
Eh not one I should be proud of.

2 years ago, I stopped being a whore and actually took pride in myself and gasp! I was smart in school!
That's amazing too.

Last summer, Suicidal. There was always something making me sad and empty inside.
Not something to be happy about.

This summer...still has a hint of last summer but I'm wearing brightly colored clothes. I have been ever since...Christmas break I think.

But like I'm saying I'm seeing changes in some of my friends too.
Some for good. Some...kinda creepy.

Like how Brandon is wearing eyeliner.
Personally I don't like it on him. Makes him look like he wants little kids but watevs it's his choice.

And Lacie. I swear her confidence has tripled since Freshman year. :D
Morki, Yea she's moved to Lincoln and I still miss her but she looks amazing ;D

But now my mind is still stuck on last summer with me being suicidal. Yes me and my mom didn't get along at all and I was suppose to go live in Georgia but couldn't cos she wouldn't let me. I'm starting to wonder wat caused this explosion of change. Like the butterfly effect. (I think that's wat it's called...) When something little has a big effect. Hm...Maybe it's cos I don't talk to Chris anymore.
(For those who don't know he was a guy I was supposedly "in love" with but I know realize he was all wrong for me)
Or cos in Junior High there's all this drama and then I got into High School and boop! No more drama :)
Then again it could have been with my parents giving me more freedom with the cell phone. I remember a huge change around Homecoming time.

All of these are good reasons I guess.
But my looks have also changed too.
Can't believe I would actually be saying this but my face actually makes me look...cute. Like my face has changed just a bit. Kinda like the girl everyone loves. That's wat I see when I look in the mirror now. Last night I was giggling cos I thought I looked cute. Which is kinda weird but I couldn't stop.

So yea. Summer is bring me changes. All for the good of me :)

Song: Idaho
Artist: Nerina Pallot
Album: Fires

(For those who don't know, Nerina wrote that song that got her out of depression so yea it sorta kinda fits right now :D)

Mothers Against Brokencyde (MABC13)

Haha I can not stop laughing at how much a mom can get so over-protective.
I was surfing the web and found this...
http://www.mothersagainstbrokencyde.net/

Yes. Go look at it and I will show you and tell you how much these mothers are smokin something. Ahem...*clears throat*

Brokencyde encourages underage females to take nude photos of themselves with their name and numbers and send them to their MySpace.
Okies, Brokencyde DID have nude photos of women on their MySpace...except it was their girlfriends. I have seen those photos and they do not look like girls my age. Really you can tell. Plus if they did encourage girls to take nude photos, wouldn't they be all around their MySpace? And don't you get kicked off MySpace for nude photos anyway? AND..!! Wouldn't the members of Brokencyde be arrested for having possesion of those photos? Last time I checked they aren't in jail.

Brokencyde has a song called "The Only Good President Is A White President."
I highly doubt that. 3 out of 4 members of Brokencyde aren't even white. Mikl, Se7en, and Antz are hispanic. Only Phat J is white and he doesn't really care who the president is. He's a stoner. Why should he care? Plus I'm a HUGE Brokencyde fan. I would have heard that song by now. I highly doubt that I, a very very very big Brokencyde fan, wouldn't have heard yet a couple of mothers against them have heard it.

Brokencyde has a segment of their live performance called "Show your cooch, Win A Smooch."
I've seen Brokencyde 3 times live. Never once have I seen that segment. Plus on the Brokencyde fan websites I'm pretty sure a bunch of girls would be going on and on and on and on about how they flashed Brokencyde to get a kiss.

Brokencyde has a song with lyrics "Fuck your parents, Fuck the principal. Smoke weed all day then do cocaine. Tap your sisters ass then push her out of the car as we drive away. Let's eat at Friendly's and not pay. I'm gonna get the Wizard Sundae."
...Why the fuck would Brokencyde sing about THAT!? I swear these mothers are dumbasses. If Brokencyde has a song like that, I never heard it. And again..., BIG Brokencyde fan! Plus Brokencyde doesn't eat Friendly's. (Watever the hell that is...) They only eat mexican food. And Friendly's doesn't sound like a place to get some mexican.

Honestly, I think these mothers are making shit up just so Brokencyde won't be able to perform at the Warped Tour. They are going to lose. Warped Tour is already in motion. :P Haha suckas! Well anyway I'm going to read the Angry Letters from kids like me. I'll post some of my favorites ;D

alright you old prunes, listen and listen good. You have WAY more hate mail from fans of BrokenCYDE then you do for people supporting you. Ban BrokenCYDE?? how fucked up is you? fer real? you're just jealous cause they don't talk about fucking old saggy ass prunes such as yourself. So STFU! like really. I'm pretty sure 50cent is 10, no A MILLION more times more sexual then brokencyde ever could be. And FYI ,sex and drugs have been out in the open for kids for a good while now. I myself FUCK while listening to brokencyde, MAKES SEX BETTER. Quit blaming them, you're just using them as an excuse, for why you're kids hate you and rebel against you. I don't know if you've noticed, but by you talkin shit, BrokenCyde gets bigger, and bigger and bigger. All the bands that are out today involve sex drugs and rebelion n there songs at least once. Where not old pooch bags like you are, and we don't listen to fuckin classical music shit anymore, we listen to what's true, and have the shit brokencyde is spittin, is true. Look for the fucking meaning behind the lyrics, Quit judging these guys, and i bet you've actually never held conversation with them, I on the other hand have. SWEETEST MOTHER FUCKERS I'VE EVER MET. And i've been to a BC13 show, there were no naked hoes on stage. So you just lied assfucks. They have more class then you think, Just because their songs are dirty doesn't mean jack shit. So why don't you start a knitting circle? instead of this ANTI brokencyde thing yu got goin, because no one, and i mean NO ONE, is going to sign a lame ass potition to get them banned from warped tour. What the fuck is that shit? i should fuckin jizz in you're face! god damn. This is why i hate mothers and old people, because they've got nothing better to do with their time, and they think they can play off fucking up their kids by dissin on a band that speaks of "naughty" things. Quit you're bitching, let you're kids listen to them if they want, you dont have to fucking listen to it. Why can't you be cool like MY mom and actually listen to them? fuck you, and fuck you're website. ONE TWO WERE COMING FOR YOU THREE FOUR LOCK THE DOOR FIVE SIX SUCK ON MY DICK BROKENCYDE WILL NEVER DIE oooooo bitch got served

Lmao. It's true Brokencyde will never die.

I don't even like Brokencyde, their music is terrible but are you guys serious with this shit? You think this band take themselves seriously? do you really think these guys rape people and break into houses and then sing about it? No, Brokencyde is quite clearly a parody, they're taking over the top views expressed normally through rap and hip-hop music and bringing it the the hardcore scene to show how truly ridiculous this is. Se7en, Milk, Phat J & Antz- do you really think these are real names? No,they are characters the band are playing. Hell even their merch rips on the whole scene 'I'm not a fan but the kids like it' If you really did your research I'm sure you'd work this out for yourself. BTW, its all about facebook now, so get a page on that instead of myspace. Safe. Ell.

Not even a Brokencyde fan and this Ell person knows that all that shit is fake.

WTF is your problem? Brokencyde are an amazing band. Who gives a fuck if they talk about sex and drugs, just because you all wasted your childhood listening to shitty music and playing by the rules. Brokencyde DONT make us have sex or drink or do drugs. Not everyone does it, and the ones who do, it is done out of choice. Just because you cant keep your kids under controll, doesn't mean you need to blame it on Brokencyde. And why make up the bullshit bout the "slut pits". Its all crap, and you fucking know it. I hope everyone who is part of this website, and the supporters go to hell. You deserve to be spiked and raped by Brokencyde, then you may shut your fucking mouths. Go die, and make us all happy. LONG LIVE BC13, fuck the haters Jordan Harris, Uk, BC13 fan

Lol. Exactly as this Jordan Harris person said. It's our choice wat we do. Brokencyde has no control over it.

Well I'm gonna go now but check out this MABC13 if you wanna either 1) Save a band you love. or 2) Bitch out some random guy's mom for fun.

Personally, I'm doing both. xD

Song: Jealousy
Artist: Brokencyde
Album: I'm Not A Fan But The Kids Like It

Perfect Boy :3

So yea like every girl dreams of the "perfect" boy. I got bored and plus I'm listening to Nickasaur! (His music makes me feel all lovey dovey inside xD) and I have the strangest urge to blog about my "perfect" boy x3


I want a boy who can wrestle with me and let me win. A boy who I can talk to about anything. One who puts my cold hands in his warm hoodie pockets and lets me use his sweatshirt for a pillow and buys me 25 cent rings and sticky hands. A boy who tells me he loves me and means it with all his heart. A boy that will kiss me in the rain, in the sunshine, and in the snow. A boy who calls unexpectedly just to tell me he wishes for me to have a great day. I want a boy who will have many inside jokes with me and remember each one. A guy that realizes I say things but dont always mean them. A boy I can go swimming with on hot days. A boy that can tell me his problems and let me help. A boy that will listen to me talk, no matter how stupid the subject. A boy who writes love letters to me, but doesnt send them. I want a boy that draws me little cute pictures. A boy that saves his absolute best smile for me. A boy with deeps eyes that can see through faces into depths. A guy that gives me his t-shirt to change into and not expect to get it back. A boy who knows my favorite color, song, car, vegetable, perfume and the color of my toothbrush. A boy that will call me by my full name-- first, middle and last once in a while when he's pretending to be angry at me. A boy who will kiss me and tell me im beautiful and not call me hot. A boy who will let me cry to him. A boy who will squeeze my hips just right and suprises me and plays with my hair. A boy who knows when I have a math test or when I fail one. A boy who will tell me "Rawr..." A boy that is honest with me and will tell me everything. A boy who doesn't think me, my style, or my music is too weird for him. A boy who loves me when I'm myself. Who loves my squeal and will tickle me just so he can hear it. A boy who smells like he just stepped out of the shower and wears cologne that I can smell when I'm leaning on his shoulder. Who tells me I have a nice laugh and a smile that lights up the room and simply be mine to hold. I want a guy that will make me happy someone that will make me smile when I hear his voice. I need someone that if he sees my face drenched in tears the first words out of his mouth are "Who's ass am I kicking now?" A boy who will stay up and watch Peter Pan with me. A boy who will be my pirate and says I'm sweeter than a 12 pack of Juicy Fruit. A boy who will use love quotes and quotes from songs to tell me how much he loves me. A boy that will carve "I Heart Kenna" into a tree. A boy who will slow dance with me in the rain. Someone who tells me I look prettier without makeup and the best in sweats. A boy who will hold my hand. A boy that will have a song with me. A boy that will sing that song to me. A boy that has a tickle spot. A boy that will surprise visit me. A boy that will lay with me in my bed and hold me. A boy that can be a bit shy. A boy that blushes once in a while. A boy that will take me to the park. A boy that will let me hang out with my guy friends. A boy that calls my mom his mom too. Someone that will love me unconditionally. I want someone who will have my friends saying to one another "She's so lucky..."

Artist: Nickasaur!
Songs: Dear June, Love At First Sight, Rocketships and Radios, Xoxo, I Declare
Album: Rawr!

Back! :3

Well it has been a year since my last blog postings. Things have changed and things haven't.
-Still got a bi-polar mom.
-Still got a pervy step dad.
-Still got BHS.

But I have changed an enormous amount.
I have actually gotten help
(Took classes about half a year ago on how to control my anger and depression...)

Yea sure my school forced my parents to make me take those classes but I have changed.
No more all black clothes. No more feeling sad and alone and like it's me vs. the world. No more no love. No more random glaring at people I don't even know.

More!!...happy music, happy clothes, bright colors, smiling, laughing, socializing.

So yea I guess you could say I've gone from an emotional depressed "emo" girl to a happy-go-lucky fun loving, smiling "scene" chica :)

Song: Waking Up In Vegas
Artist: Katy Perry
Album: One Of The Boys...

Peace... :D