Random Updates

So yea I'm just blogging from the heart right about now. And it's the first time I'm blogging while my parents are home. Hell...it's the first time I'm actually using the comp with my mom in the room!! So basically if she starts to see wat I'm typing...I'm gonna have a lot of explaining to do...


So a few blogs ago (I'm guessing 2 or 3) I wrote about Kaelyb and another guy. Some news there. Yes me and Kaelyb are broken up. Yes I did get that boy aka Brandon Collier. Yea that's all good news. But some bad news is... Kaelyb isn't over me. :( He's been blocking me on and off for the past week or 2 now. He's also been getting upset at me for no reason. Like I said that the pic of him was funny. Which it really was. His facial expression and everything actually made me laugh. But anyways it was a friendly non-harmful conversation and after I made the comment about his picture straight out of nowhere he tells me to go fuck myself. I was totally offended by that and it actually made me feel sad! And after he told me that he blocked me AGAIN!! But then the next day I see that he unblocked me (Surprise, Surprise...) and he said "Omg Kenna please don't hate me I don't know why I said that. I was mad!" and I said "Really it's okies I'm over it. But I don't get why you keep getting upset at me over the littlest things?" and then THEN!!! he says "It's because in all honesty I will never stop loving you." In my mind I was all "Shit! Fuck! Awwh how sweet. Shiiitt!!" Kinda like touched but also mad-ish. I wasn't mad but hopefully you get wat I'm sayin. Oh wait. But before that I should tell you wat he said about me and my boyfriend. So one day I saw he unblocked me on msn so I talked to him and being a concerned ex-girlfriend who's trying to be friends I asked "Are you really over me?" and he said yes. I'm pretty sure it was the next day that on my msn my saying mentioned my boyfriend and he said something about it and was like "Well I hope you and him are happy!!!" That's when I started thinking he wasn't over me but now I know he'll probably never get over me for a while. Which pretty much sucks.

Lately I've been getting back to my old life sorta-ish. Like my other ex-boyfriend Chris. And my old BFF Khai. Haha they haven't changed a bit. :] Khai says I've changed a lot. Which yea I have lol. I've missed them both tons. But as I keep talking to them some old memories come up. Like when I was suicidal. Which I'm glad I can safely say I'm not suicidal anymore! Or when me and my mom and step-dad had the worst parent-kid relationship in the history of the Earth! Well almsot. My parents have never burnt me with cigarettes or rape me and stuff like that. But you get wat I'm saying. It was bad.

Also with s'mores year coming up. I heard this song Weightless by All Time Low and I'm hoping that my sophmore year is like this song. See in the song it says "Maybe it's not my weekend. But it's gonna be my year." Yea I was hoping that freshman year would be a good year. Yea that was when I changed but then all the rumors about me going around. Looking back and remembering all the rumors about me (fucking Mike Wright and getting myself pierced "down there" were some of the major ones) I bet that if none of those rumors went around, I would have had a kickass freshman year! But nope! SOMEONE couldn't keep their mouth shut and it started a whole wildfire about me...GAWD!!!
So yea I hope sophmore year's gonna be kickass.


Well that's about it. I feel better now. :]
ttyl my loves!


Song: My Own Worst Enemy
Artist: Lit
Album: A Place In The Sun