Truly.

I'm so incredibly alone.

Sometimes because of my age. In the sophomore class but really suppose to be a freshman. Everyone else starts driving during sophomore year. But not Kenna! D:<

Other times it's cos of my parents. Always thinking I'm the person I was a little bit over a year ago. Always sneaking out and going behind their backs. I'm not. D': So because they think that I rarely go out of town for more than a few hours with friends.

I wish I had a best friend who lived in town. Terra's the only best friend I can trust a lot of the times. Atleast she won't go behind my back and spread out my secrets. But she lives in Douglas. Long ways away.

I can trust Amber a lot of times too. But then usually Dessi or Natasha have to take her away from me.


And that PISSES me off!!
Amber was my friend first! They always take the friends I made first.

Aaron, Allen, Brandon, Amber, the list goes on.

Yea sure I've taken maybe 1 or 2 of their friends. I can't make a really good friend without them running off with them. Why can't they make their own friends? I promise not to steal them.


Partly debating on staying best friends with them. I dunno. Probably not. Kinda attached but not really.


I guess I'm just spewing out my feelings right now. No one really to talk to. Friday night and some people can go hang out with friends.


Another feelings I'm having is Jeff. Where IS he!?
I haven't talked to him in like over a week.

I know he has soccer practice but it doesn't last that long. And I'm sure he doesn't have THAT much homework..

I miss him too much. ):



I think I'm gonna end this blog now.
Night everyone..

Do Better?

Lately I have the song Do Better by Say Anything in my head.
iTunes recommended it for me and it has been like 2 years since I've listened to them.

But this song...it's not like their usual work. It really speaks to me.


"You can do better, You can do better. You can be the greatest man in the world."

Sure I'm not a man. But I guess it's saying to people that we should all try harder.

Which is true. I could try harder in a lot of things.
Maybe I should start.


It also says "You burn so brightly."

People have told me before that I am a bright person.
(Actually people said it more often when I was going through depression...Were they just trying to make me feel better or are other people that oblivious to things?)

I guess if I'm bright I should work a bit harder.
I guess I can try.


Do we all need to try harder these days?

Get me out of here.

Ever since I was little I knew everyone is destined for great things.
"Everyone is destined for great things but it takes a truly amazing person to do the great things."

My motto I made up..
I'm not sure if I will do great things.
But also when I was little I knew Syracuse was too small for a girl like me.

I wanna go on adventures and explore the world.


But will I end up like Murphy?
Murphy is from my favorite book series, Peaches by Jodi Lynn Anderson. She's exactly like me I swear. She's reckless and crazy and everyone wants to be around her.
But...she doesn't wanna stay in Bridgewater forever. Too small. But in the end of the 3rd and final book, Love And Peaches, she ends up missing Bridgewater and leaves New York for it.


I'm just wondering if I will end up missing this small town..


Who knows...

Ah! Jeff!? D:

I found out Jeff is in crutches.

Crutches!!?

Since yesterday! And I found out about half an hour ago! D:


My poor boyfriend!!

Stupid soccer. He rolled his ankle or something like that.
I wish I could be with him right now.
But I told Schweitzer to give him lots of love for me. :3


I hope Jeff gets better soon! D':

<3

YouTube is on pause!

I dunno if you guys watch my videos. I don't really care lol.

But...!
I can't make videos for a while. Well atleast not longer ones.

My SD card is busted!!

Seriously this is how it went down...

Chapter 1: Kenna deletes some stuff off her camera.
Chapter 2: Kenna turns her camera off and plugs it in to the wall charger.
Chapter 3: Hours later Kenna comes back to make a video but wait! It says "Card Error" on the screen.
Chapter 4: Kenna tries to fix it.
Chapter 5: Kenna's step dad tries to fix it.
Chapter 6: The next day Kenna's step dad says it's busted..
Chapter 7: Kenna screams "WTF!?" in her mind...


yea...

It's messed up. But I'm trying to pull through until I get a new SD card.

Well..

Peace! :D

Jimmy 'The Rev' Sullivan

I don't really know if you guys listen to Avenged Sevenfold or if you even care. But this band is close to my heart so I must blog.

Avenged Sevenfold's drummer died 2 days ago. But I found out yesterday but I didn't blog about it then cos I just didn't feel like it. It was too soon.

Not only was he one of the greatest drummers in the whole world but he was Brandon's hero. And if I'm crushed imagine wat Brandon is feeling.

On Brandon's facebook he said he's not taking any calls or IMs or anything. The Rev was the only hero Brandon had I think. And now he's left with no hero. I wanna just walk the 20 miles to Neb City and give him a hug. But he needs time alone.



A fan posted something on an article about The Rev's death saying that he's 28 and that you don't die of natural causes at 28. I can feel millions of fans thinking "Why God? Why'd you take him now?"

I can't answer that question. And I'm hoping so much that it wasn't drug related. He doesn't seem like that type of guy.

I don't know wat else to say except..

-I hope Brandon feels better soon.
-I hope they can find more about The Rev's death.
-I hope all of A7X's fans are pulling through this tragic time.
-I hope The Rev is happy...wherever he is..

R.I.P. James 'The Rev' Sullivan


Song: Dear God
Artist: Avenged Sevenfold
Album: Avenged Sevenfold

Angry List...grr! >:]

I'm so bored. And I know I already blogged today but who cares? I'm deciding to make a list of how to make me mad. :D (not in any particular order...)

1. Shoving religion down my throat. I do not care about how you think God works. I believe that if you believe in him, you're good to go.

2. No means no. End of discussion. Enough said...

3. Knowing I have a boyfriend and trying to get me to do "stuff" with you. Nothing but a bunch of man whores in this town.

4. Acting B.A. but really you aren't. I have a friend, who will not be named, do this a lot. I don't give a monkey's banana if you "supposedly" got drunk last night. stfu and get a life.

5. Judging me. You don't know me or my life. Just cos my hair and my style and my personality and the way I act is too weird for you does not give anyone a right to "hate" me and go behind my back and make up shit about me. Which brings me to #6.

6. Making up rumors. Period. Countless times where I found out that someone started a rumor that I slept with them or their boyfriend.

7. Sexual Harassment. I have gone through this ever since I was 4 years old. I just went through it 2 minutes ago. No joke. Some guy who I just started talking to like 30 minutes ago sent me "something." Don't even know him, he doesn't know me or wat I look like. He just thought it would be okies to send it. It also makes me REALLY mad that guys act like its not even a big deal after they do that.


That's about it. Stupid people...sorry..still somewat mad over wat the guy sent me.
Oh wow this guy is different. He's actually starting to feel bad. Sorry but I swear this is the first guy to feel bad afterwards...

sigh...

alright bye people <3