I use to not believe in hate. That has changed. I hate my mother. And it's not like that teenage thing "Oh I hate my mom cos she wouldn't let me go out with friends." No this is actually hatred. I loathe her.
Lately things have not been good between me and her.
Like how she PROMISED me she would give me back my iPod AND my cell phone. I do not have either back yet.
And she's telling me to tell the truth and always be honest. She's a hypocrite. She stole from WalMart and Target!!!
And a rumor is going around my family that she's taking me to a Green Day concert soon. The only reason she's taking me (if the rumor's true) is cos my real dad is taking me to a different concert!!!
She doesn't even want me but the only reason she's keeping me is cos she doesn't want my dad being happy cos he's keeping me.
I hate my mother and I want her to get out of my life...
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
My Owl City experiment
So last night there was a thunderstorm and it woke me up.
(How it didn't wake anyone else up I will never know.)
Then I remembered a few days ago I wanted to try listening to my Owl City songs during a storm. So yea I had an experiment sorta thingie.. xD
(I don't know why I did it..! o.O)
See the songs on my iPod are Rainbow Veins, Super Honeymoon, West Coast Friendship, Fireflies, Vanilla Twilight, and Fuzzy Blue Lights.
Here is my response to each song... :]
Rainbow Veins
This song didn't really have much effect to me during the storm. But it was quite calm and relaxing 8D
Super Honeymoon
This song had more of an effect than Rainbow Veins but not much. It put me a little bit more on the sleepy side.
West Coast Friendship
Yea this song almost put me to sleep lol. It also reminded me a lot of California haha.
Fireflies
OhMyGizzod this song had an awesome effect on me. I was paying attention to the lyrics and when it got to the climax part of the song it started lightning-ing a lot xD Tell me that's just a coincidence!! It's not. God wanted it to happen >:D
Vanilla Twilight
Yea this song put me to sleep. Literally! I fell asleep then woke up like 10 seconds later haha!
Fuzzy Blue Lights
This song I don't quite remember. Lol maybe cos I crashed when all my music was done. xD!!
So yea...basically if you can't sleep during a thunderstorm I suggest listening to Vanilla Twilight by Owl City :3
That's all for now..!
kiss kiss~ ;3
Song: Vanilla Twilight
Artist: Owl City
Album: Ocean Eyes
(How it didn't wake anyone else up I will never know.)
Then I remembered a few days ago I wanted to try listening to my Owl City songs during a storm. So yea I had an experiment sorta thingie.. xD
(I don't know why I did it..! o.O)
See the songs on my iPod are Rainbow Veins, Super Honeymoon, West Coast Friendship, Fireflies, Vanilla Twilight, and Fuzzy Blue Lights.
Here is my response to each song... :]
Rainbow Veins
This song didn't really have much effect to me during the storm. But it was quite calm and relaxing 8D
Super Honeymoon
This song had more of an effect than Rainbow Veins but not much. It put me a little bit more on the sleepy side.
West Coast Friendship
Yea this song almost put me to sleep lol. It also reminded me a lot of California haha.
Fireflies
OhMyGizzod this song had an awesome effect on me. I was paying attention to the lyrics and when it got to the climax part of the song it started lightning-ing a lot xD Tell me that's just a coincidence!! It's not. God wanted it to happen >:D
Vanilla Twilight
Yea this song put me to sleep. Literally! I fell asleep then woke up like 10 seconds later haha!
Fuzzy Blue Lights
This song I don't quite remember. Lol maybe cos I crashed when all my music was done. xD!!
So yea...basically if you can't sleep during a thunderstorm I suggest listening to Vanilla Twilight by Owl City :3
That's all for now..!
kiss kiss~ ;3
Song: Vanilla Twilight
Artist: Owl City
Album: Ocean Eyes
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Happy August!! :D
Atleast I think it's August. Since I don't have my phone I rely on my iPod's calendar to tell me wat day it is..when I actually care wat day it is. Haha xD
So yea I start school in 16 days..16 days!? Wtf!!? Summer has gone by fast. I wish school would start soon but then after like 2 weeks I'll wish for it to be over again lmao. But I'm excited! My real dad is taking me to a Blink-182, Fall Out Boy, and Panic at the Disco concert the day before school starts hehe xD My mom doesn't realize that yet. BUT..! She said I could go to the concert so bwahahaha...!!
Sophmore year..eep!! *excitement!*
Don't tell my mommy but I stole her Frankenstein doll (that makes a Frankenstein noise when you squeeze it!! x3) and I'm putting it in my locker. Yup taping it on the door ;D And I'm going to probably magnetic poetry. (Magnets with words so you can make your own poems x3) And pictures of all my besties. My mom has no clue I'm going to be using her printer this much tehe. ^^ xD
And I'm getting blonde highlights again. Last time I got them when they started growing out some of them turned WHITE! xD
I thought it was cool! Hopefully it'll happen again. x3
And since school is starting again let's get ready for some more DrAmA~!
Oi damn I hate the drama at my school. Like if there's no drama then there will be in 5 minutes. And then the new 7th grade that are coming into the school. (My school is middle school and high school combined)
They have wayyy too much drama. Especially the girls. Like I thought my middle school years were dramatic. Fuck no!! Like if someone starts dating someone else even just drops dead just by hearing about it basically. That's how dramatic these 7th graders are. Not too mention my brother Quinn will be coming to my school. That's gonna be a pain in the ass. Cos like either I get in trouble and nags me about it later at home or he gets in trouble and I nag him about it at home. Basically when he's not in trouble, I am. He gets it from me :3
And then how my real dad is living here again and it's driving my mom insane. She thinks now it's everyone vs. her. Really it's not. She's getting really paranoid D8 I think she's gone Schitzo!! Hahaha xD
Well that's it for now. Everyone good luck with the new school year :]
Bye lovers! x3
Song: Crank It Up
Artist: Hadouken!
Album: Music For An Accelerated Culture
So yea I start school in 16 days..16 days!? Wtf!!? Summer has gone by fast. I wish school would start soon but then after like 2 weeks I'll wish for it to be over again lmao. But I'm excited! My real dad is taking me to a Blink-182, Fall Out Boy, and Panic at the Disco concert the day before school starts hehe xD My mom doesn't realize that yet. BUT..! She said I could go to the concert so bwahahaha...!!
Sophmore year..eep!! *excitement!*
Don't tell my mommy but I stole her Frankenstein doll (that makes a Frankenstein noise when you squeeze it!! x3) and I'm putting it in my locker. Yup taping it on the door ;D And I'm going to probably magnetic poetry. (Magnets with words so you can make your own poems x3) And pictures of all my besties. My mom has no clue I'm going to be using her printer this much tehe. ^^ xD
And I'm getting blonde highlights again. Last time I got them when they started growing out some of them turned WHITE! xD
I thought it was cool! Hopefully it'll happen again. x3
And since school is starting again let's get ready for some more DrAmA~!
Oi damn I hate the drama at my school. Like if there's no drama then there will be in 5 minutes. And then the new 7th grade that are coming into the school. (My school is middle school and high school combined)
They have wayyy too much drama. Especially the girls. Like I thought my middle school years were dramatic. Fuck no!! Like if someone starts dating someone else even just drops dead just by hearing about it basically. That's how dramatic these 7th graders are. Not too mention my brother Quinn will be coming to my school. That's gonna be a pain in the ass. Cos like either I get in trouble and nags me about it later at home or he gets in trouble and I nag him about it at home. Basically when he's not in trouble, I am. He gets it from me :3
And then how my real dad is living here again and it's driving my mom insane. She thinks now it's everyone vs. her. Really it's not. She's getting really paranoid D8 I think she's gone Schitzo!! Hahaha xD
Well that's it for now. Everyone good luck with the new school year :]
Bye lovers! x3
Song: Crank It Up
Artist: Hadouken!
Album: Music For An Accelerated Culture
Friday, July 31, 2009
Friend Drama...
So yea this is all based on just ONE friend. Like wtf? My friend has to be such a bitch I have to take my steam out on my blog instead of at her? Apparently!
See like first she has to take her friends' boys. But now she has to lie about everything? Even when she doesn't need to!
Like I've always told her "I would rather take honesty over lies. No matter wat it is.." But obviously she can't get it through her thick head.
Or the fact that she's a drama queen. Like when something doesn't go her way, all she will do is just sit there and pout! Like just get over it! And she never takes responsibility for her actions. She always has to blame someone else.. I doubt I could remember a time when she has actually taken the blame for her actions.
Oh and she can't do anything without my "say so." It's like if I would never do it, she would never do it. And then she tries to make it seem like she's being like me. Everyone knows there could never be 2 Kennas. If there was, run bitches run!! xD
Haha but seriously. It's like her regular life isn't good enough.
And then her self-esteem issues. Like basically this is how she feels "I'm not good enough for that but I'm too lazy to even try and get better cos I know I will never be good enough."
Pathetic eh?
I just swear I'm gonna smack her!! Gahhh!!! She has no idea how much she pisses everyone off.
So here I'm gonna ask you all wat I should do..
Any suggestions? Comment!! ^_^
Song: Congratulations, I Hate You
Artist: Alesana
Album: Try This With Your Eyes Closed
See like first she has to take her friends' boys. But now she has to lie about everything? Even when she doesn't need to!
Like I've always told her "I would rather take honesty over lies. No matter wat it is.." But obviously she can't get it through her thick head.
Or the fact that she's a drama queen. Like when something doesn't go her way, all she will do is just sit there and pout! Like just get over it! And she never takes responsibility for her actions. She always has to blame someone else.. I doubt I could remember a time when she has actually taken the blame for her actions.
Oh and she can't do anything without my "say so." It's like if I would never do it, she would never do it. And then she tries to make it seem like she's being like me. Everyone knows there could never be 2 Kennas. If there was, run bitches run!! xD
Haha but seriously. It's like her regular life isn't good enough.
And then her self-esteem issues. Like basically this is how she feels "I'm not good enough for that but I'm too lazy to even try and get better cos I know I will never be good enough."
Pathetic eh?
I just swear I'm gonna smack her!! Gahhh!!! She has no idea how much she pisses everyone off.
So here I'm gonna ask you all wat I should do..
Any suggestions? Comment!! ^_^
Song: Congratulations, I Hate You
Artist: Alesana
Album: Try This With Your Eyes Closed
Monday, July 27, 2009
Boredness Blog
I am doing this cos well...title says it all! :D *jazz hands*
Hehe.
Well some of you may know, some of you may not know,...I was in the hospital Saturday through Sunday. My BHS got to me and it was Kaelyb's fault. I feel bad for blaming it on him but yea. It was his fault. He kept calling me a whore and a slut and a whole bunch of other stuff. (This was on MSN btw!) Like I said "Kaelyb, please stop making me feel so low." and then he said "Low!? The only reason you're low is cos you're always on your knees!"
Which that was the worst one for me. Like it really hurt. And then at the hospital when the doctors saved me my aunt came and gave me her labtop to stay connected with friends and blah blah blah. (She let's me us it whenever I'm hospitalized.) Anyways Kaelyb messaged me and he was like "Omg! Kenna I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to start your BHS! I was mad! You know I have anger issues!" Which he does. One of the reasons I broke up with him. Oh shit he's messaging me right now on MSN. Okies but that day he said he thinks he has split personality. Which I wouldn't doubt. But from now on if he wants to talk to me, he's going to have to talk first.
But right now on MSN he's being nice. Which I'm so relieved for.
So yea...other than the hospital things are great.
:3
ttyl luhvs x3
Song: Never Forgotten Summer
Artist: A Sunset Diary
Album: All They Ever Do Is Stare
Hehe.
Well some of you may know, some of you may not know,...I was in the hospital Saturday through Sunday. My BHS got to me and it was Kaelyb's fault. I feel bad for blaming it on him but yea. It was his fault. He kept calling me a whore and a slut and a whole bunch of other stuff. (This was on MSN btw!) Like I said "Kaelyb, please stop making me feel so low." and then he said "Low!? The only reason you're low is cos you're always on your knees!"
Which that was the worst one for me. Like it really hurt. And then at the hospital when the doctors saved me my aunt came and gave me her labtop to stay connected with friends and blah blah blah. (She let's me us it whenever I'm hospitalized.) Anyways Kaelyb messaged me and he was like "Omg! Kenna I'm so sorry! I didn't mean to start your BHS! I was mad! You know I have anger issues!" Which he does. One of the reasons I broke up with him. Oh shit he's messaging me right now on MSN. Okies but that day he said he thinks he has split personality. Which I wouldn't doubt. But from now on if he wants to talk to me, he's going to have to talk first.
But right now on MSN he's being nice. Which I'm so relieved for.
So yea...other than the hospital things are great.
:3
ttyl luhvs x3
Song: Never Forgotten Summer
Artist: A Sunset Diary
Album: All They Ever Do Is Stare
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Random Updates
So yea I'm just blogging from the heart right about now. And it's the first time I'm blogging while my parents are home. Hell...it's the first time I'm actually using the comp with my mom in the room!! So basically if she starts to see wat I'm typing...I'm gonna have a lot of explaining to do...
So a few blogs ago (I'm guessing 2 or 3) I wrote about Kaelyb and another guy. Some news there. Yes me and Kaelyb are broken up. Yes I did get that boy aka Brandon Collier. Yea that's all good news. But some bad news is... Kaelyb isn't over me. :( He's been blocking me on and off for the past week or 2 now. He's also been getting upset at me for no reason. Like I said that the pic of him was funny. Which it really was. His facial expression and everything actually made me laugh. But anyways it was a friendly non-harmful conversation and after I made the comment about his picture straight out of nowhere he tells me to go fuck myself. I was totally offended by that and it actually made me feel sad! And after he told me that he blocked me AGAIN!! But then the next day I see that he unblocked me (Surprise, Surprise...) and he said "Omg Kenna please don't hate me I don't know why I said that. I was mad!" and I said "Really it's okies I'm over it. But I don't get why you keep getting upset at me over the littlest things?" and then THEN!!! he says "It's because in all honesty I will never stop loving you." In my mind I was all "Shit! Fuck! Awwh how sweet. Shiiitt!!" Kinda like touched but also mad-ish. I wasn't mad but hopefully you get wat I'm sayin. Oh wait. But before that I should tell you wat he said about me and my boyfriend. So one day I saw he unblocked me on msn so I talked to him and being a concerned ex-girlfriend who's trying to be friends I asked "Are you really over me?" and he said yes. I'm pretty sure it was the next day that on my msn my saying mentioned my boyfriend and he said something about it and was like "Well I hope you and him are happy!!!" That's when I started thinking he wasn't over me but now I know he'll probably never get over me for a while. Which pretty much sucks.
Lately I've been getting back to my old life sorta-ish. Like my other ex-boyfriend Chris. And my old BFF Khai. Haha they haven't changed a bit. :] Khai says I've changed a lot. Which yea I have lol. I've missed them both tons. But as I keep talking to them some old memories come up. Like when I was suicidal. Which I'm glad I can safely say I'm not suicidal anymore! Or when me and my mom and step-dad had the worst parent-kid relationship in the history of the Earth! Well almsot. My parents have never burnt me with cigarettes or rape me and stuff like that. But you get wat I'm saying. It was bad.
Also with s'mores year coming up. I heard this song Weightless by All Time Low and I'm hoping that my sophmore year is like this song. See in the song it says "Maybe it's not my weekend. But it's gonna be my year." Yea I was hoping that freshman year would be a good year. Yea that was when I changed but then all the rumors about me going around. Looking back and remembering all the rumors about me (fucking Mike Wright and getting myself pierced "down there" were some of the major ones) I bet that if none of those rumors went around, I would have had a kickass freshman year! But nope! SOMEONE couldn't keep their mouth shut and it started a whole wildfire about me...GAWD!!!
So yea I hope sophmore year's gonna be kickass.
Well that's about it. I feel better now. :]
ttyl my loves!
Song: My Own Worst Enemy
Artist: Lit
Album: A Place In The Sun
So a few blogs ago (I'm guessing 2 or 3) I wrote about Kaelyb and another guy. Some news there. Yes me and Kaelyb are broken up. Yes I did get that boy aka Brandon Collier. Yea that's all good news. But some bad news is... Kaelyb isn't over me. :( He's been blocking me on and off for the past week or 2 now. He's also been getting upset at me for no reason. Like I said that the pic of him was funny. Which it really was. His facial expression and everything actually made me laugh. But anyways it was a friendly non-harmful conversation and after I made the comment about his picture straight out of nowhere he tells me to go fuck myself. I was totally offended by that and it actually made me feel sad! And after he told me that he blocked me AGAIN!! But then the next day I see that he unblocked me (Surprise, Surprise...) and he said "Omg Kenna please don't hate me I don't know why I said that. I was mad!" and I said "Really it's okies I'm over it. But I don't get why you keep getting upset at me over the littlest things?" and then THEN!!! he says "It's because in all honesty I will never stop loving you." In my mind I was all "Shit! Fuck! Awwh how sweet. Shiiitt!!" Kinda like touched but also mad-ish. I wasn't mad but hopefully you get wat I'm sayin. Oh wait. But before that I should tell you wat he said about me and my boyfriend. So one day I saw he unblocked me on msn so I talked to him and being a concerned ex-girlfriend who's trying to be friends I asked "Are you really over me?" and he said yes. I'm pretty sure it was the next day that on my msn my saying mentioned my boyfriend and he said something about it and was like "Well I hope you and him are happy!!!" That's when I started thinking he wasn't over me but now I know he'll probably never get over me for a while. Which pretty much sucks.
Lately I've been getting back to my old life sorta-ish. Like my other ex-boyfriend Chris. And my old BFF Khai. Haha they haven't changed a bit. :] Khai says I've changed a lot. Which yea I have lol. I've missed them both tons. But as I keep talking to them some old memories come up. Like when I was suicidal. Which I'm glad I can safely say I'm not suicidal anymore! Or when me and my mom and step-dad had the worst parent-kid relationship in the history of the Earth! Well almsot. My parents have never burnt me with cigarettes or rape me and stuff like that. But you get wat I'm saying. It was bad.
Also with s'mores year coming up. I heard this song Weightless by All Time Low and I'm hoping that my sophmore year is like this song. See in the song it says "Maybe it's not my weekend. But it's gonna be my year." Yea I was hoping that freshman year would be a good year. Yea that was when I changed but then all the rumors about me going around. Looking back and remembering all the rumors about me (fucking Mike Wright and getting myself pierced "down there" were some of the major ones) I bet that if none of those rumors went around, I would have had a kickass freshman year! But nope! SOMEONE couldn't keep their mouth shut and it started a whole wildfire about me...GAWD!!!
So yea I hope sophmore year's gonna be kickass.
Well that's about it. I feel better now. :]
ttyl my loves!
Song: My Own Worst Enemy
Artist: Lit
Album: A Place In The Sun
Friday, July 10, 2009
Sophmore Year is soon coming
So yea I think it was yesterday...*hold on thinking*...Yea it was yesterday when I got on PowerSchool on my schools website cos I have been dying to see if I got the classes I wanted. Answer is:...Haha!! Yea!!!
First Period: Art 1 with Mrs. Sasse
Second Period: English 2 with Mrs. Simon
Third Period: Spanish 2 with Mrs. Mohr
Fourth Period: Choir with Ms. Poe
5a Lunch Period
Fifth Period: Geometry with Mrs. Nix
Sixth Period: Algebra 2 with Mr. Boerner
Seventh Period : World Cultures with Mr. Fuller
Eighth Period: Biology with Mrs. Volkmer
Yes. My class schedule. Ta-Da! I'm glad I'm taking 2 math classes this year. And I'm glad to be back in Mr. Fuller's class cos well that's my favorite classroom haha. It's just...Biolody. Last year I was hempaphobic or howevs you spell it. Either way I had a fear of gore or blood. Like real life type. I could sit through a whole gore movie and be fine. I'm not sure if I'm over it tho. I have a feeling I will faint in that class...
I'm hoping that the year will go smoothly for me. And I really hope I don't have to get more than 3 backpacks like I do every single year cos they always break on me!!! D:<
And how I'm going to get my hair the way I wanted. My mom promised me. If she doesn't you guys are witnesses cos she did PROMISE me I could get my hair like that.
Anyways no one's talking to me on the comp and my ex boyfriend Bryce is in town so I think I'll bug him haha. Bye Loves ;D
Song: Misery Business
Artist: Paramore
Album: Riot!
First Period: Art 1 with Mrs. Sasse
Second Period: English 2 with Mrs. Simon
Third Period: Spanish 2 with Mrs. Mohr
Fourth Period: Choir with Ms. Poe
5a Lunch Period
Fifth Period: Geometry with Mrs. Nix
Sixth Period: Algebra 2 with Mr. Boerner
Seventh Period : World Cultures with Mr. Fuller
Eighth Period: Biology with Mrs. Volkmer
Yes. My class schedule. Ta-Da! I'm glad I'm taking 2 math classes this year. And I'm glad to be back in Mr. Fuller's class cos well that's my favorite classroom haha. It's just...Biolody. Last year I was hempaphobic or howevs you spell it. Either way I had a fear of gore or blood. Like real life type. I could sit through a whole gore movie and be fine. I'm not sure if I'm over it tho. I have a feeling I will faint in that class...
I'm hoping that the year will go smoothly for me. And I really hope I don't have to get more than 3 backpacks like I do every single year cos they always break on me!!! D:<
And how I'm going to get my hair the way I wanted. My mom promised me. If she doesn't you guys are witnesses cos she did PROMISE me I could get my hair like that.
Anyways no one's talking to me on the comp and my ex boyfriend Bryce is in town so I think I'll bug him haha. Bye Loves ;D
Song: Misery Business
Artist: Paramore
Album: Riot!
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