Maybe I'm Dreaming...

Okies I know I'm overdue for a blog. But lately I got inspired by Phoenix's blog "August Dreams." Check her blog out. She's an amazing blogger. :]

But anyways with school and thoughts and guy stuff happening a lot with me lately I'm trying to figure out the best route for me. Like "Wat guy would make me the happiest and not hurt me?" or "Should I bother studying even tho I'm good enough for this class anyway..?"

Cos there are like...I dunno. All I know is there's more than 5 guys who want me right now. Some are for sex. Some love. Some just like me out of the blue 85-ish% chance I'm gonna choose love. xD Maybe for the guys that like me. I don't know. :/ All I know is I don't want a guy who just wants me for my body. Like how pathetic is that? I really don't think you can be any shallower than that. It's just stupid. Which is why I'm not choosing the guys that want me for sex. I believe in loving/liking a person for who they are. Like for example I dated this drug addict back in 7th grade. People were all like "Wtf? Why are you dating Cody?" and they just didn't get it. If they saw past the stoner they would've seen a really nice guy. Sure me and him met on a blind date set up by ours friends but I'm glad I gave him a chance. :]


And now school. I'm trying so hard to get into Doane College in Crete, NE. It's a perfect school for me where I can become a psychologist. And colleges like lots of math classes. Which is why I'm taking TWO math classes this year and then taking College Algebra for my Junior Year. I dunno if I want to take a math class my senior year. :/ Not to mention I'm taking lots of College Credit classes my Senior Year and doing loads of extra-curricular activities. See Doane is a good Performing Arts college. Note that I am in Drama, Choir, Band, and Speech. :D Which would help me cos this college gives out scholarships just for being in pep band! o.O That's like 10 years of College for me! o.O

And then how I'm going to get to my favorite city ever to live. Akron, Ohio!

Oh gosh. I'm in over my head. @_@

Song: God Help The Girl
Artist: God Help The Girl
Album: God Help The Girl

(wow... xD)

You're killing me smalls!

School started for me Monday..
(Fuck!!)
Like it's only the first week and already I'm tired of it D:

It's only the first week and already I'm having drama. ):
Guy drama, friend drama, family drama.

I hate being a teenager D:
Too much drama. ):


And the fact that sophmore year I have tons of homework D8
And I had to get a new locker >_>
And Mike is already after me again D':

He won't leave me alone Dx
He forced me to walk home with him.. o.o
(Can that count as harassment? >_>)

Haha I wish...wait...he bit me.. >_>
I could try to get him in trouble but I doubt it would do anything o.O



Gosh this is so random.
I wish I had a Saturday night life xD
But then again I'm overdue for a blog..

Hows everyone doin tonight!? ;D xD
*boredom!!!*

dear lord.. xD

Song: Big Bang Theory Theme
Artist: The Barenaked Ladies
Album: Big Bang Theory Theme-Single

My Mother

I use to not believe in hate. That has changed. I hate my mother. And it's not like that teenage thing "Oh I hate my mom cos she wouldn't let me go out with friends." No this is actually hatred. I loathe her.

Lately things have not been good between me and her.
Like how she PROMISED me she would give me back my iPod AND my cell phone. I do not have either back yet.
And she's telling me to tell the truth and always be honest. She's a hypocrite. She stole from WalMart and Target!!!

And a rumor is going around my family that she's taking me to a Green Day concert soon. The only reason she's taking me (if the rumor's true) is cos my real dad is taking me to a different concert!!!
She doesn't even want me but the only reason she's keeping me is cos she doesn't want my dad being happy cos he's keeping me.

I hate my mother and I want her to get out of my life...

My Owl City experiment

So last night there was a thunderstorm and it woke me up.
(How it didn't wake anyone else up I will never know.)

Then I remembered a few days ago I wanted to try listening to my Owl City songs during a storm. So yea I had an experiment sorta thingie.. xD

(I don't know why I did it..! o.O)

See the songs on my iPod are Rainbow Veins, Super Honeymoon, West Coast Friendship, Fireflies, Vanilla Twilight, and Fuzzy Blue Lights.



Here is my response to each song... :]

Rainbow Veins

This song didn't really have much effect to me during the storm. But it was quite calm and relaxing 8D

Super Honeymoon

This song had more of an effect than Rainbow Veins but not much. It put me a little bit more on the sleepy side.



West Coast Friendship

Yea this song almost put me to sleep lol. It also reminded me a lot of California haha.



Fireflies

OhMyGizzod this song had an awesome effect on me. I was paying attention to the lyrics and when it got to the climax part of the song it started lightning-ing a lot xD Tell me that's just a coincidence!! It's not. God wanted it to happen >:D

Vanilla Twilight

Yea this song put me to sleep. Literally! I fell asleep then woke up like 10 seconds later haha!

Fuzzy Blue Lights

This song I don't quite remember. Lol maybe cos I crashed when all my music was done. xD!!


So yea...basically if you can't sleep during a thunderstorm I suggest listening to Vanilla Twilight by Owl City :3

That's all for now..!
kiss kiss~ ;3

Song: Vanilla Twilight
Artist: Owl City
Album: Ocean Eyes

Happy August!! :D

Atleast I think it's August. Since I don't have my phone I rely on my iPod's calendar to tell me wat day it is..when I actually care wat day it is. Haha xD

So yea I start school in 16 days..16 days!? Wtf!!? Summer has gone by fast. I wish school would start soon but then after like 2 weeks I'll wish for it to be over again lmao. But I'm excited! My real dad is taking me to a Blink-182, Fall Out Boy, and Panic at the Disco concert the day before school starts hehe xD My mom doesn't realize that yet. BUT..! She said I could go to the concert so bwahahaha...!!

Sophmore year..eep!! *excitement!*
Don't tell my mommy but I stole her Frankenstein doll (that makes a Frankenstein noise when you squeeze it!! x3) and I'm putting it in my locker. Yup taping it on the door ;D And I'm going to probably magnetic poetry. (Magnets with words so you can make your own poems x3) And pictures of all my besties. My mom has no clue I'm going to be using her printer this much tehe. ^^ xD

And I'm getting blonde highlights again. Last time I got them when they started growing out some of them turned WHITE! xD
I thought it was cool! Hopefully it'll happen again. x3


And since school is starting again let's get ready for some more DrAmA~!
Oi damn I hate the drama at my school. Like if there's no drama then there will be in 5 minutes. And then the new 7th grade that are coming into the school. (My school is middle school and high school combined)
They have wayyy too much drama. Especially the girls. Like I thought my middle school years were dramatic. Fuck no!! Like if someone starts dating someone else even just drops dead just by hearing about it basically. That's how dramatic these 7th graders are. Not too mention my brother Quinn will be coming to my school. That's gonna be a pain in the ass. Cos like either I get in trouble and nags me about it later at home or he gets in trouble and I nag him about it at home. Basically when he's not in trouble, I am. He gets it from me :3

And then how my real dad is living here again and it's driving my mom insane. She thinks now it's everyone vs. her. Really it's not. She's getting really paranoid D8 I think she's gone Schitzo!! Hahaha xD

Well that's it for now. Everyone good luck with the new school year :]
Bye lovers! x3


Song: Crank It Up
Artist: Hadouken!
Album: Music For An Accelerated Culture