Summer Bringing Changes...again..

Yea I think we all know summer brings changes for lots of people. I've changed a bit each summer for like the past 3 or 4 years...

4 years ago, I was shy, anti-social, had only 1 friend, and was a major girly girl.
Hard to believe right?

3 years ago, I turned into a whore who absolutely needed attention from every person in a 30 foot radius of me.
Eh not one I should be proud of.

2 years ago, I stopped being a whore and actually took pride in myself and gasp! I was smart in school!
That's amazing too.

Last summer, Suicidal. There was always something making me sad and empty inside.
Not something to be happy about.

This summer...still has a hint of last summer but I'm wearing brightly colored clothes. I have been ever since...Christmas break I think.

But like I'm saying I'm seeing changes in some of my friends too.
Some for good. Some...kinda creepy.

Like how Brandon is wearing eyeliner.
Personally I don't like it on him. Makes him look like he wants little kids but watevs it's his choice.

And Lacie. I swear her confidence has tripled since Freshman year. :D
Morki, Yea she's moved to Lincoln and I still miss her but she looks amazing ;D

But now my mind is still stuck on last summer with me being suicidal. Yes me and my mom didn't get along at all and I was suppose to go live in Georgia but couldn't cos she wouldn't let me. I'm starting to wonder wat caused this explosion of change. Like the butterfly effect. (I think that's wat it's called...) When something little has a big effect. Hm...Maybe it's cos I don't talk to Chris anymore.
(For those who don't know he was a guy I was supposedly "in love" with but I know realize he was all wrong for me)
Or cos in Junior High there's all this drama and then I got into High School and boop! No more drama :)
Then again it could have been with my parents giving me more freedom with the cell phone. I remember a huge change around Homecoming time.

All of these are good reasons I guess.
But my looks have also changed too.
Can't believe I would actually be saying this but my face actually makes me look...cute. Like my face has changed just a bit. Kinda like the girl everyone loves. That's wat I see when I look in the mirror now. Last night I was giggling cos I thought I looked cute. Which is kinda weird but I couldn't stop.

So yea. Summer is bring me changes. All for the good of me :)

Song: Idaho
Artist: Nerina Pallot
Album: Fires

(For those who don't know, Nerina wrote that song that got her out of depression so yea it sorta kinda fits right now :D)

Mothers Against Brokencyde (MABC13)

Haha I can not stop laughing at how much a mom can get so over-protective.
I was surfing the web and found this...
http://www.mothersagainstbrokencyde.net/

Yes. Go look at it and I will show you and tell you how much these mothers are smokin something. Ahem...*clears throat*

Brokencyde encourages underage females to take nude photos of themselves with their name and numbers and send them to their MySpace.
Okies, Brokencyde DID have nude photos of women on their MySpace...except it was their girlfriends. I have seen those photos and they do not look like girls my age. Really you can tell. Plus if they did encourage girls to take nude photos, wouldn't they be all around their MySpace? And don't you get kicked off MySpace for nude photos anyway? AND..!! Wouldn't the members of Brokencyde be arrested for having possesion of those photos? Last time I checked they aren't in jail.

Brokencyde has a song called "The Only Good President Is A White President."
I highly doubt that. 3 out of 4 members of Brokencyde aren't even white. Mikl, Se7en, and Antz are hispanic. Only Phat J is white and he doesn't really care who the president is. He's a stoner. Why should he care? Plus I'm a HUGE Brokencyde fan. I would have heard that song by now. I highly doubt that I, a very very very big Brokencyde fan, wouldn't have heard yet a couple of mothers against them have heard it.

Brokencyde has a segment of their live performance called "Show your cooch, Win A Smooch."
I've seen Brokencyde 3 times live. Never once have I seen that segment. Plus on the Brokencyde fan websites I'm pretty sure a bunch of girls would be going on and on and on and on about how they flashed Brokencyde to get a kiss.

Brokencyde has a song with lyrics "Fuck your parents, Fuck the principal. Smoke weed all day then do cocaine. Tap your sisters ass then push her out of the car as we drive away. Let's eat at Friendly's and not pay. I'm gonna get the Wizard Sundae."
...Why the fuck would Brokencyde sing about THAT!? I swear these mothers are dumbasses. If Brokencyde has a song like that, I never heard it. And again..., BIG Brokencyde fan! Plus Brokencyde doesn't eat Friendly's. (Watever the hell that is...) They only eat mexican food. And Friendly's doesn't sound like a place to get some mexican.

Honestly, I think these mothers are making shit up just so Brokencyde won't be able to perform at the Warped Tour. They are going to lose. Warped Tour is already in motion. :P Haha suckas! Well anyway I'm going to read the Angry Letters from kids like me. I'll post some of my favorites ;D

alright you old prunes, listen and listen good. You have WAY more hate mail from fans of BrokenCYDE then you do for people supporting you. Ban BrokenCYDE?? how fucked up is you? fer real? you're just jealous cause they don't talk about fucking old saggy ass prunes such as yourself. So STFU! like really. I'm pretty sure 50cent is 10, no A MILLION more times more sexual then brokencyde ever could be. And FYI ,sex and drugs have been out in the open for kids for a good while now. I myself FUCK while listening to brokencyde, MAKES SEX BETTER. Quit blaming them, you're just using them as an excuse, for why you're kids hate you and rebel against you. I don't know if you've noticed, but by you talkin shit, BrokenCyde gets bigger, and bigger and bigger. All the bands that are out today involve sex drugs and rebelion n there songs at least once. Where not old pooch bags like you are, and we don't listen to fuckin classical music shit anymore, we listen to what's true, and have the shit brokencyde is spittin, is true. Look for the fucking meaning behind the lyrics, Quit judging these guys, and i bet you've actually never held conversation with them, I on the other hand have. SWEETEST MOTHER FUCKERS I'VE EVER MET. And i've been to a BC13 show, there were no naked hoes on stage. So you just lied assfucks. They have more class then you think, Just because their songs are dirty doesn't mean jack shit. So why don't you start a knitting circle? instead of this ANTI brokencyde thing yu got goin, because no one, and i mean NO ONE, is going to sign a lame ass potition to get them banned from warped tour. What the fuck is that shit? i should fuckin jizz in you're face! god damn. This is why i hate mothers and old people, because they've got nothing better to do with their time, and they think they can play off fucking up their kids by dissin on a band that speaks of "naughty" things. Quit you're bitching, let you're kids listen to them if they want, you dont have to fucking listen to it. Why can't you be cool like MY mom and actually listen to them? fuck you, and fuck you're website. ONE TWO WERE COMING FOR YOU THREE FOUR LOCK THE DOOR FIVE SIX SUCK ON MY DICK BROKENCYDE WILL NEVER DIE oooooo bitch got served

Lmao. It's true Brokencyde will never die.

I don't even like Brokencyde, their music is terrible but are you guys serious with this shit? You think this band take themselves seriously? do you really think these guys rape people and break into houses and then sing about it? No, Brokencyde is quite clearly a parody, they're taking over the top views expressed normally through rap and hip-hop music and bringing it the the hardcore scene to show how truly ridiculous this is. Se7en, Milk, Phat J & Antz- do you really think these are real names? No,they are characters the band are playing. Hell even their merch rips on the whole scene 'I'm not a fan but the kids like it' If you really did your research I'm sure you'd work this out for yourself. BTW, its all about facebook now, so get a page on that instead of myspace. Safe. Ell.

Not even a Brokencyde fan and this Ell person knows that all that shit is fake.

WTF is your problem? Brokencyde are an amazing band. Who gives a fuck if they talk about sex and drugs, just because you all wasted your childhood listening to shitty music and playing by the rules. Brokencyde DONT make us have sex or drink or do drugs. Not everyone does it, and the ones who do, it is done out of choice. Just because you cant keep your kids under controll, doesn't mean you need to blame it on Brokencyde. And why make up the bullshit bout the "slut pits". Its all crap, and you fucking know it. I hope everyone who is part of this website, and the supporters go to hell. You deserve to be spiked and raped by Brokencyde, then you may shut your fucking mouths. Go die, and make us all happy. LONG LIVE BC13, fuck the haters Jordan Harris, Uk, BC13 fan

Lol. Exactly as this Jordan Harris person said. It's our choice wat we do. Brokencyde has no control over it.

Well I'm gonna go now but check out this MABC13 if you wanna either 1) Save a band you love. or 2) Bitch out some random guy's mom for fun.

Personally, I'm doing both. xD

Song: Jealousy
Artist: Brokencyde
Album: I'm Not A Fan But The Kids Like It

Perfect Boy :3

So yea like every girl dreams of the "perfect" boy. I got bored and plus I'm listening to Nickasaur! (His music makes me feel all lovey dovey inside xD) and I have the strangest urge to blog about my "perfect" boy x3


I want a boy who can wrestle with me and let me win. A boy who I can talk to about anything. One who puts my cold hands in his warm hoodie pockets and lets me use his sweatshirt for a pillow and buys me 25 cent rings and sticky hands. A boy who tells me he loves me and means it with all his heart. A boy that will kiss me in the rain, in the sunshine, and in the snow. A boy who calls unexpectedly just to tell me he wishes for me to have a great day. I want a boy who will have many inside jokes with me and remember each one. A guy that realizes I say things but dont always mean them. A boy I can go swimming with on hot days. A boy that can tell me his problems and let me help. A boy that will listen to me talk, no matter how stupid the subject. A boy who writes love letters to me, but doesnt send them. I want a boy that draws me little cute pictures. A boy that saves his absolute best smile for me. A boy with deeps eyes that can see through faces into depths. A guy that gives me his t-shirt to change into and not expect to get it back. A boy who knows my favorite color, song, car, vegetable, perfume and the color of my toothbrush. A boy that will call me by my full name-- first, middle and last once in a while when he's pretending to be angry at me. A boy who will kiss me and tell me im beautiful and not call me hot. A boy who will let me cry to him. A boy who will squeeze my hips just right and suprises me and plays with my hair. A boy who knows when I have a math test or when I fail one. A boy who will tell me "Rawr..." A boy that is honest with me and will tell me everything. A boy who doesn't think me, my style, or my music is too weird for him. A boy who loves me when I'm myself. Who loves my squeal and will tickle me just so he can hear it. A boy who smells like he just stepped out of the shower and wears cologne that I can smell when I'm leaning on his shoulder. Who tells me I have a nice laugh and a smile that lights up the room and simply be mine to hold. I want a guy that will make me happy someone that will make me smile when I hear his voice. I need someone that if he sees my face drenched in tears the first words out of his mouth are "Who's ass am I kicking now?" A boy who will stay up and watch Peter Pan with me. A boy who will be my pirate and says I'm sweeter than a 12 pack of Juicy Fruit. A boy who will use love quotes and quotes from songs to tell me how much he loves me. A boy that will carve "I Heart Kenna" into a tree. A boy who will slow dance with me in the rain. Someone who tells me I look prettier without makeup and the best in sweats. A boy who will hold my hand. A boy that will have a song with me. A boy that will sing that song to me. A boy that has a tickle spot. A boy that will surprise visit me. A boy that will lay with me in my bed and hold me. A boy that can be a bit shy. A boy that blushes once in a while. A boy that will take me to the park. A boy that will let me hang out with my guy friends. A boy that calls my mom his mom too. Someone that will love me unconditionally. I want someone who will have my friends saying to one another "She's so lucky..."

Artist: Nickasaur!
Songs: Dear June, Love At First Sight, Rocketships and Radios, Xoxo, I Declare
Album: Rawr!

Back! :3

Well it has been a year since my last blog postings. Things have changed and things haven't.
-Still got a bi-polar mom.
-Still got a pervy step dad.
-Still got BHS.

But I have changed an enormous amount.
I have actually gotten help
(Took classes about half a year ago on how to control my anger and depression...)

Yea sure my school forced my parents to make me take those classes but I have changed.
No more all black clothes. No more feeling sad and alone and like it's me vs. the world. No more no love. No more random glaring at people I don't even know.

More!!...happy music, happy clothes, bright colors, smiling, laughing, socializing.

So yea I guess you could say I've gone from an emotional depressed "emo" girl to a happy-go-lucky fun loving, smiling "scene" chica :)

Song: Waking Up In Vegas
Artist: Katy Perry
Album: One Of The Boys...

Peace... :D