I wish it would rain tho D:
Like I know during the night time it's been nothing but rain. But it doesn't rain during the day D':
I want to dance in the rain. I want Jeff to come here and dance in the rain with me.
But sadly he has a life and a job D:
A job at the one restaurant I really don't like. Runza. Ewwie :P
Gosh I haven't blogged in a long time. And it will continue to be a while for I am leaving in 2 days D:
To Mrytle Beach. Yea sure it's cool. But a full week of the family being nothing but a huge facade.
Mom- "Okay everyone now smile for the camera and make everyone think we're the perfect family. :D"
Or how my mom forces me to wear ugly clothes that resemble hers. A few years ago when I was in therapy, the discusion about my clothes came up. My mom said "Well I just wish she would be honest with me when we go shopping so we don't waste money on clothes she'll never wear."
Yea look were THAT got us. Ever since then shopping has been a nightmare with her. I don't get why she can't just leave me alone and let me do wat I want. Seriously that has been one of my main roots of depression for how long? Her not accepting anything makes it worse.
But for real. On this vacation I'm not saying one word at all. Maybe a few words here and there. I'm just gonna get through this as quick as possible, smile for the stupid pictures that'll get uploaded on Facebook and not ever be looked at again.
Only reason I'm going is for my Kid Leather gloves. The gloves I have been wanting for like almost 2 years now. Ha. Kinda funny tho. Jim said my room had to be clean before we leave and I said "Why? It's not like you guys are gonna leave me anyways."
It's true. Plane tickets are paid for.
Yea sure. I'm always complaining how I wanna leave town. But not with my family. I wanna be free. Nebraska. Nebraska is not a place if I wanna be free.
I just wanna get my license, get Jeff, and just leave someday.
Like my Las Vegas plans.
I'm for real I don't care wat anyone says.
The day after graduation I'm getting in my car with clothes and other things I may need, and just gonna drive to Las Vegas for a while. I also wanna find the house I was born in in California.
It's gonna be amazing. Hopefully Jeff or someone can come with me.
Too bad for now, all I can do is dream. ):
